I apologize for not posting during my spring break. I meant to, but I never had the patience to sit down and think about what I wanted to say.
My spring break was rather interesting. I got sick three days in, and stayed sick throughout the whole time being home. But that was okay. I ended up spending copious amounts of time with my family, just watching movies and stuff. That was nice. Although if I'm being honest, I have to say that I really didn't want to come back to Capernwray yesterday. I felt as though my break wasn't done yet. But I'm here now anyway, if a little bit reluctantly. But I refuse to let that feeling interfere with what God wants to teach me today and this week.
God really taught me one lesson through and through during my spring break. Maybe it wasn't so much as a lesson as it was a reminder of something I already knew. Something that I'm sure everyone already knows. It's the lesson that God is always there. This lesson first came to me during study project presentations when one of my fellow students shared out of Joel. In Joel, the prophet repeats the words "never again will my people be put to shame" lots. Using this passage, Jordan (the person presenting this prophet) reminded us of another place in Scripture where God repeats Himself. "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you." (Joshua 1:9, Hebrews 13:5) Twice repeated, twice as comforting.
Then God really pounded in this message to me over the spring break while I was sick. Never once did I ever feel alone. Never once did I ever question God's whereabouts because I knew that He was there. Usually when something goes wrong in my life, the first question I ask is "Where are you, God?" But this time, I never had to ask because He made Himself known to me. It was a really cool experience. Even when I was grumbling and complaining about being sick (I have a serious problem with grumbling and complaining), He was still there, listening to my complaints. Felt quite ashamed at times of my childness.
Anyway, that's the reminder I got from God over spring break. Now I'm at Capernwray, learning about Isaiah this week from Bruce Campbell. We've only had one session (which was this morning), but it seems really interesting so far. He was one of my favourite lecturers in the fall term. Next week, I think Lawrence Jansen is coming again. This time to teach us Galatians. He was another one of my favourites in the fall term, so I'm really looking forward to what he has to say on Galatians.
There has been something crazy going on in my life for the last couple weeks. It started off as this crazy fantasy of working in the kitchen at a camp, but it has turned into this burden that I carry on my back. In the beginning, it really felt like God was the one orchestrating this crazy adventure, but now it seems like the doors of my heart have been coming to a close on this. But I don't know if it's God closing the door or if it's been just me. I'm in the process of filling out a summer staff application for this camp, but all the personal questions have me stressed out. In fact, every time I even so much as think about this camp or even look at the application, I start to feel incredibly overwhelmed by all of it. That is something that I could definitely use prayer for. Just pray that my heart will be in it if that's the ministry God wants to place me in.
