I've been learning about procrastination this week. Honestly, I've been procrastinating with blogpost... partly because I didn't know what to say and partly because I didn't know to say what I needed to say. If that makes sense. So I thought today would be just as good of a time as any to post my next musing linked to the 30 things challenge, seeing as I magicly got the weekend of because of this ridiculous snowstorm that happened. All 3 of our groups cancelled.
Here we go... (try to say that in the Joker's voice)
3 Legitimate Fears I Have:
1) Fear of dying having lived a meaningless life
I know what you're thinking: strange fear to have. I think everyone has it to some degree. At the end of my life I want to know that my short little wisp-of-air life meant something in the world. I don't want to live a life that has no meaning. How did this fear develop, you might ask? I can't put my finger on what it was exactly, but it probably has to do with how easily inspired I seem to be. I know that this fear started to develop when I was in the 12th grade. I want to make a difference in this world, even if it's as small as buying TOMS shoes and Sevenly clothing.
2) Fear of becoming mentally ill
Clinical depression, manic depressive, anxiety disorders,etc... Strange fear, I know. How did this fear develop, you might ask? Mental illnesses seem to run in my family line. I fear becoming so mentally ill that I am dependent on drugs and can no longer enjoy life to its fullest. Silly, but true.
3) Fear of heights
I know what you're thinking: really? Heights? Is that legitimate? Yes. I read somewhere that every human is born with a fear of heights, but most overcome it early on in their life. So I guess that's how I developed it, couldn't think of any other explanation. And this summer I definitely learned that this fear is a legitimate one... I taught rock climbing, which meant I climbed more than I normally do. I had to re-overcome my fear of heights every time I went up the wall! It just wouldn't go away!
So there you have to.
To end on a positive note, here are some fears I've overcome in my life:
1) Fear of flying in airplanes
2) Fear of the dark
3) Fear of death
4) Fear of people missing limbs (yes I know, don't judge, I've overcome it)
